Her colors look mighty familiar..

Richard called me from work last night & apologized again. He sounded sincere this time, so I kind of let it go. I know people say things they don't mean when they're mad.. but he needs to work in it a little. Kiss my ass and go to hell is not something you say to your girlfriend. But anyways, he came over after work & broke down a little I guess you could say. I feel so bad for him. I know he's goin` through alot right now.. I wish I knew how to help him. I need to win the lotto so I can buy him the $500 amp he wants for christmas.

He's so wierd, he was telling me "I can make you pass out." So he put me against the door & made me take ten deep breaths & hold my breath on the last one & then he pushed my chest really hard & just held his hands there until I couldn't hold my breath anymore. At first it wasn't working ´cause I kept laughing. Then the second time I wanted to scare him so I completely fell to the floor like I really passed out & he was all tryna pick me up & shit lol. Then I started laughin` & he's like "You scared the mess out of me!" hah. Then we did it a few more times & it's so wierd.. It feels like you're drunk. I would start talkin` right away & then I wouldn't remember what I said ten seconds later lol. It was crazy. but kids Don't Try This At Home ´cause according to my mom it's "dangerous" lol. Well anyways, I'm gonna go rinse the deep conditioner out of my hair & go to Sally's to get my color. Breathe easy.

  WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE YOU JUST DON'T TREAT THEM BAD.

I might not even make protected entries anymore.. ´cause I was only gonna do it because I wanted to put all my feelings about a certain person on here & they read this.. but now I don't care what they think about how I feel.. It's not like he cares about my feelings anyway.

I went to the mall with Heather & Jessica last night to see that Napolean Dynamite movie or whatever it is. We watched like ten minutes of it & got up & left lol. We walked around the mall for a while. There was too many fuckin` people there. We saw Trennel & I was talkin` so much shit to him it was hillarious. Right in front of his friends too. I made him feel so stupid. Then he said he was gonna call his "bitches" to come beat my ass.. but it didn't happen? hmm.. Anywho, some guy named Gideon, Jessica knew kept talking to us & he told me I looked like a model. He asked me how old I was & I said I was in seventh grade lmao. Then that was the joke for the rest of the night, every guy that hit on us we told him we were in seventh grade lol. When we were walkin` out of the mall, there was this big ass group of guys & Heather yells at the top of her lungs "AINT SEVENTH GRADE SO MUCH FUN YOU GUYS?!" Then me & Heather went back into the movie theater & we kept walkin` into different shows & she would yell "AWW I THOUGHT THIS WAS WHERE THE PARTY WAS AT!" ahaha. I love her. Then we left & drove around lookin` at people's Christmas lights for a while, then we came home & knocked out.

Today I came home in the morning & tell me why Richard gets mad at me ´cause I didn't call him last night because I COULDN'T because Heather's mom took her phone?? Damn how am I supposed to call someone without a fuckin` phone? So we get into a huge fight blah blah.. he told me "Kiss my ass and go to hell." Which is just real mature aint it? and those words coming from someone that "loves me so much" and "cares about me" and would "kill himself if he ever lost me"? ..the fuck? He is ridiculous. Then he tries to apologize to me & asks if I wanna break up with him & all this shit. What the fuck ever. I'm not even gonna listen to his sorry ass apologies anymore. All I know is he aint gonna ruin my christmas break. He can either be nice and RESPECTFUL to me or leave me the fuck alone. I'm done playin` games.. forreal.

First of all, all these people with their little xanga tracker thingys or whatever, comin` at me with "Oh my God, you came to my sight but you didn't leave a comment." Sorry, but I'm not gonna respond to your ass =) Not to be a bitch or anything but I'm not gonna comment someone's page unless they write something that interests me. I'm not the prop-thirsty type to go around proppin` people just so I can get a hundred comments or some shit. I'm just sayin`..

Anyways, Richard slept over again last night lol. He made up for last night ´cause he was bein` all sweet to me & he bought cookie dough & we made cookies together.. and we just sat and talked about how fun it used to be when we were lil` kids & stuff. It was nice for a change. I love my "black brotha" (like my song?) =)

I was doin` my hair today & my mom popped out of no where talkin` about how fun it was for her raising me ´cause I'm such a girly girl. Aww lol. She's right though.. I started putting (well trying to put) make up on when I was still in diapers. I've always had my own style.. my whole life. I don't know I just thought that was cute. I'm sleepin` over at Heather's tonight so I'm gonna go call her. toodles.

I have seven spots on my protected list still, so you still gotta chance to be added.

BlOnDiE 4 Ya 247: why u talkin shit

Bitch if anyone is talkin shit it's YOU. Talkin` bout your gonna "kill me" lmao. I'm still waiting for that.. Besides aint nobody got time to waste talkin` about you, so go sniff some drugs up your nose or fuck some herpy infested dudes like usual.

ANYWAYS, No school for two weeks and three days! ;D I can not wait for Christmas, I need new clothes. Richard spent the night last night & was mean most of the time. *shakes head. Sometimes I just don't know man. I'm chillen` with Heather this weekend. My step dad's in Colorado for a week I think. (yes!) I'm redying my hair sometime over break. I'm gonna do it the red I usually do but I'ma put honey colored highlights in it too. Well I'm gonna get in the shower. so bye.

Oh yeah and I'm gonna start making my entries protected once in a while so leave a comment if you want me to add you.